Monday, August 23, 2004
ja palang dae..
cuz of the many diff ways im feeling maybe?
typical monday blues..
y muz dey name it monday blues?
blue is such a nice colour!
cant dey name it monday browns? or monday greys?
*sigh* forgive me..im sounding crappy..
*well, sch started as usual..9am..
was rather irritated in the morning..monday blues and all..
plus all the shoving and "tsk"s on the crowded bus..pple falling onto me and not apologising..made my mood even worse..
cant those pple sae an "excuse me" or "sorry" or smth??
boarded no. 8 @ eunos, squeezed, den saw marcus when i managed to find a comfortable space to stand.
surprised, he said, "a, didnt c u juz now.."
den i sorta snapped back @him, "yeah.me also nvr c u juz now."
the moment i said it, i felt kinda guilty.
he looked rather taken aback too.
i mean, he's my fren and all plus morever he didnt do anyting to irritate me. but i gave him a reply wif a totally wrong tone. talking abt being rude..sheez.
*when we reached sch, we were like 5min late for acc tut..met jac and the 3 of us strolled up.. =X tink we were all dreading seeing the new tutor..haiz..
terrible time in tut..she juz kept repeating tings she said..whenever she tok she sounded funny cuz she seem to b having smth in her mouth..
plus she kept giving me tis intense stare..i oso dunno y..
she spent so much time beating abt the bush and answering our qstn on a/c receivable and accrued expenses dat by the time she finish going thru mid-sem test and started on tis week's tut, it was alreadi 10.30am. half an hr b4 lesson ends. great.
aarrggghhhh~~~can we get mr Gerard Teo to come back pls~
*marketing tut was quite a fruitful session when mr nair told us abt his experience working in the front office..answering our qstns abt sip..
it set me tinking..its not early to begin on our resume and going to experience different areas of the hotels and also looking out for companies..
so that we noe what we'll want better ya?
*everybody seems so sianz todae..including me..wif a swollen bottom eyelid somemore..
tink i rubbed it too much on sat..now got infection and swell..
*on the way home..tot abt bsc stuff..
tinking abt my part actualli..cuz some of my worries are frm there..
worries abt myself..cuz i tink im rather quiet during meetings..
but its not im not tinking anyting..juz dat i didnt express myself..
i dunno how to explain it..but in OB's words, its called social loafing.
which means a person is quiet becuz he/she is shy, not becuz dey r doing lesser than the rest.
in my case i tink its not onli shyness, but also lack of self-confidence..
dats one of my worries dat im trying hard to solve..
rem there was once we had bonding session after one of our meetings..
Jo was saying someting abt not taking her abilities to match wif Lester's when she started crying..
den i cried too. cuz i felt smth in common to her..
a few daes later delong asked me y i cried dat dae..i couldnt answer him..maybe mixed feelings inside and i didnt noe how to explain myself..but now i got an ans..
Jo was trying to prove her abilities as an individual, w/o any connections to Lester. she wanted to prove that she had her own abilities, not depending on anyone to get tings done.
i was trying to prove myself too, dat althou i was reserved in meetings i can still do my job..i wanted to show that i can contribute in someway in another.
*sigh* how come keeping tis inside seems more sensible den saying it out?
♥ a flower bloomed
8:47 PM
