with all the scary costumes and stories and spooky pumpkin jack-o-lanterns, halloween has nvr, and i dun tink it will ever be, an occasion that i will ever participate in..
alright alright, cuz i'm mousely-timid can?!
i rem the halloween event at far east plaza during the occasion last yr, where there were pple dressed up in creepy costumes of scary movies characters. frankenstein, zhen zi, and other equally scary characters whose names i dont know, were 'roaming' ard the basement area of the shopping mall in broad daylight that day, posing for shots with or for amused passer-bys..
and, scaring the hell out of alot of pple ard.
of course, that includes yours truely..i was desperately trying to avoid bumping into any of the characters, but they were roving almost everywhere! when i turned at a corner of one of the shops to 'escape' for a moment and go to the toilet, the frightening zhen zi has rounded the other corner and was at the opposite of me.
obviously, i just zoomed off to the furthest end possible.
and whoever who was there wif me, just stood there laughing. very funny. ha.ha.
so unless halloween characters can get as cute as tis little one over here, you can be sure that i will never, ever be celebrating the occasion. guarenteed plus chop.
peek-a-boo!
haha, its my little booboo chipu! i have been eyeing him at a certain acrade for mths, till i finally managed to catch him.. :) i cant find his partner-in-peek-a-boo, the lighter-coloured chipmunk, though.. anyone who spots him at any arcade, tell me!
see, he's so cute rite?not scary rite?unlike well, you know.blah.
okie okieeeee, since its halloween today, i shall ahem, grudgingly, wish everyone who enjoys the occasion a happy halloween!
i kept it all in, till i closed the main door of my house earlier on. then, tears started to flow, once again taking out more of whatever optimism that is left in me. or the self-encouragement that i have been trying to give myself. i'm weary, so so tired, its taking such a toil that i dont know what can i do already. everything that is so important to me has crashed, leaving me in its ruins.
4 yrs ago, it left me with a broken family. 3 yrs later, my strongest pillar of support abandoned me. and throughout these 4 yrs, situations have made my life so difficult, it has slowly took away my hope, my belief in family and relationships, as well as the self-confidence that i tried so hard to build up.
its not like i didnt hope before, have faith before, but each time hope is there it just plummeted, with situations worsening instead of getting better. each time i hope, each time it gets beaten down. the whole cycle repeats, till now, it has taken all out of me.
they say difficult times makes a person grow stronger, that i used to agree. now instead, it has made me weaker, bitter and more pessimistic. i used to be able to tell myself to be optimistic whenever i met with a bad situation, i used to have the positivity to face up to things, but not anymore. all these that happened throughout these yrs have taken such a toil on me, that it has drained out all that i have inside.
all that i have now is just a heavy heart, with no hope or anything left. i dont think anyone can understand that kinda feeling. someone once said before that i shldnt escape from things. there isnt anyting for me to escape from, because they are all out of my control. and i dont want to escape, i just want all these situations to be all over. i just want to see the rainbow after the rain. i just wanna be truly happy. but the rainbow doesnt seem to be coming out for me. and i am just like a clown putting up a smile, but crying behind the masquerade.
♥ a flower bloomed 9:55 PM
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
danceflow.
i juz was happening to switch to street dancer on channel u on mon, and this grp's dance item caught my attention!i think i'm gonna start supporting them on the show..haha.dey're good!
i like tis performance the best!cuz it juz makes you go 'awww..' after watching it..and makes me wish i cld dance.. *bish bish* if only.tong shou tong jiao (same hand same leg) how to dance..haha.
and this is their previous dance item on the competition..
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